So many changes...

Okay...so I'm back! But u already know how crazy shit can get. Alright so I have a new "love" intersest...(to be determined) lol ;) I just landed a new gig as the face of a new t-shirt company (yaay!!!) and Im almost out of debt(woohoo!). Other than that summer is on it's way, but not qiute here...wtf! can I get a beach day before July??? I love the sun, cant wait for those 90 degree weekends (fuck all you hot weather haters! ...get an AC lol). My lil mama is out for the summer...so big mama will surely be out and about! Cant wait , mama time! Anyway thats it for now ,bitches still hating, mama still movin...it is what it is! Till next time!

Its getting warm...

The summer is coming and Im so excited! My friends & I got a lil taste on Saturday night and I cant wait! I love the warm weather and the carefree summer fun! My girls better get ready it's gonna be a wild one...bitches!!! lol Its time to come out and play...

Its been a Minute...

So its been a while, due to all my drama. Things that I wont even get into (cause they're that damn complicated), too much for a blog entry. Anyway everything is starting to die down and I finally am having a positive outlook on my situation. (TG) Well I started my new job today and boss is cool ass shit, so with that said I think I'll be fine. Real Estate. Thats what I'm trying now. Since Im a natural born hustler I think this will suit me well. I love to work hard and make money. This allows me the opportunity to do so. I already went out to view a few properties and Im doing well...

Needed this...

With all the effed up sh*t thats been happening, this definitely put a huge smile on my face! I'm still wiping the tears from LMAO about this...

This magical fairy right here! When I finally eat the death dick, look up Nicole Marie-Loretta Leonard in the directory of crazy, because this enchanting pixie needs to bring her brilliance to my funeral!

The 25-year-old pranced into the funeral of a man she didn't even know in Laurens County, SC. Nicole took center stage in front of the service and proceeded to dance around while waving a magical wand over the casket. Tinkercrazy then opened the casket, touched the dead man and threw flowers at the audience. After her grand dance of the insane, Nicole fluttered away and flew off in a burgundy Toyota.

You know the audience gave her a standing ovation. There wasn't a dry eye in the house. Even the dead man came back to life, clapped and then died again.

The cops pulled her over on a nearby highway and she admitted to everything she did back at the church. Nicole said she didn't know anyone at the funeral, but "felt it was the right thing to do at the time."

Tinkercrazy was charged with disorderly conduct and disrupting a funeral.

Seriously, even crazy ass OctoMommy wants to hug Tinkercrazy with a straitjacket and calmly tell her to stop listening to the Peter Pan voice inside her head. Whatever kind of kitchen-made bad shit she's on, she needs to keep taking it.

By crashing one funeral at a time, Nicole Marie-Loretta Leonard is making the world a magical place.

Source

(Thanks Vinyl

Villager)

Did you really call me??? LMAO! (diet drama)

OMG! Just when I thought things couldn't get better! My arch nemesis decided to give me a ring the other night! And the best part is the bitch really wanted me to spare her feelings with my responses to her ridiculous action... lol. I told her the honest to God truth, yes, I talk to your man everyday; yes, I fuck him on a regular basis. Hahahaha still lmao! What an idiot! I even offered to play some VM 's he had left me recently and then all the sudden the dip stick "didn't know how to use 3 way" Comedy at it's finest!!! What a joke!
And the icing on the cake was him trying to call me deny the truth! Until I had to check him and let him know that if he ever pulled that bullshit with me again I'd absolutely let her him begging me to pick up the phone and confessing his love for me on my machine. Of coarse the calls stopped( well at least for that night). But being the obsessed love crazed stalker that he is the texts, calls and vm's continue... boy I bet he's regretting that shit!!! LMAO...smh!

I hope that he learned his lesson... don't talk reckless to the one you truly, it will definitely bite you in the ass later. Keep make love to my voice mail, lol... idiot! : )

Duck!!!

Okay, so its been a hot minute since I've expressed myself (blog-style) but there is good reason for it all. Well things have been a lil hectic (as usual) so obviously I'm pre-occupied. Where to begin... well for starters; he's not gone just yet! It looks like a lil extension of time has been given...(hmmm wonder how that happened?... btw Thanks, u know who ;)
Anyway I went out on Saturday to a baby shower which was supposed to be a an early take down night (being that I was with lil mama) but of coarse it's never that easy. After being begged, persuaded, and finally convinced to go out afterwards, I did. But of coarse for not following my gut instinct, I had an awful night. Well not really, it actually ended horribly. After being adored all night by EVERYONE in the club, it could only be that one (FAT) girls' hate couldn't contain itself. Ignoring me at the bar all night, deliberately taking everyone else's order around me (people coming before and after I was standing there) standing there for about 15 minutes or so, I decided that the bitch obviously had issues and refused to take my order, so out of frustration I flung a drink off the bar. Apparently that all it took for the big fat beast to get all her hate out, because before I knew it she throws a bottle and hit me right on my nose!!! I know...WHO DOES THAT!
I'll tell you who, someone who is obviously so unhappy with themselves, that they need to try to ruin something beautiful to make themselves feel better. Naturally I jump over the bar to mash the bitch out, when a bouncer grabs me and takes me to the men's room to try to diffuse the situation. Well, long story short thank god no stitches, but some one is definitely gonna pay. I've scared on my face and being that that's one income source for me. Some one will pay...note to bar to you should really check your staff and call the boys when needed, not tell people "that it wasn't a big deal"...tisk, tisk. I hope you have insurance!
Other than that snow, a lil sadness, same 'ol, same 'ol. But like I always say I'm one of God's favorites everything will be okay...

Sronger than I think...

Lord,
Help me to remeber that nothing is going to happen today
that you and I together cant handle!


Thank you so much, ever since a dear frind of mine put this prayer in my life it seemed to have gotten me through the toughest times...

Keeping occupied...

So, other than the obvious other things are happening as well.
I'm doing what I can to get back to being the positive and motivated pretty girl that I am. For lent I am giving up one of my favorite things ( bad habit, but hey everyones got one). I am pretty excited about this since its been so long since I've taken a break from it, so lets see how I do. I've also gone back to my old daily routines which include 1 hour of exercise and 1 hour of reading a day. Obviously those are habits that should have never been let go, but life happens! I am particularly excited about the Wii Fit that I am getting this week, I just saw the demo on line and am ecstatic ( ..I really miss yoga). I'm super happy about how sick my body will be come summer time!!! Ah yes, the old me is getting back, so watch out world! lol! Oh! btw I forgot to mention that I finally got my truck back so Yayyy!!! I'm going to pick it up on Saturday morning, so thats great. Slowly but surely everything is falling back into place. So as for all that other stuff...eff it!

Leo.... could this be more on point???...smh

Tuesday, Feb 24th, 2009 -- Today's New Moon is in your 8th House of Intimacy and you are no longer satisfied in a partnership if the other person cannot match your level of intensity. You don't have a wide spectrum of responses now when it comes to expressing your intentions. For you, it's either all or nothing with very little in between. You can avoid disappointment by realizing that the fulfillment of a promise may not mean as much to someone else as it does to you.

Weekend Wrap Up!

It's been a few days, but I'm back...where to begin? Well I had a nice V-day with my lil mama, we went ice skating for the first time and had a good time. She fell a few times which explains why we were only there for about an 1 1/2 hrs. But we had fun, and thats all that matters. Later on I had dinner with one of my girlies and after we went out for drinks...( anything to keep our lonely asses from staying home alone...lol!) The night went well, even though the end sucked pretty bad, we both went home anticipating something that just wasn't going to be...how foolish one can be when it comes to matters of the heart, smh...
Anyway, Sunday was "sucker-free" (just the way I like it) and the fact that I changed all my numbers early that morning definitely helped, lol! I have decided it's time to make some changes, so I did something I didn't think I'd ever do. I feel like I had to, just cut out all the bullshit constantly getting in my way.
Monday was a better day, no work or school. So I slept till like 1 o'clock ( cant remember when was the last time I did that!) Me and lil mama just bummed it out and watched movies all day (my favorite!)

Stop Hitting Yourself !!!

A person will only treat you the way you allow them to. Anyone feeling down and out and not understanding why their situations with others are so...well, its because you let it be. If you're gonna be angry, be angry with yourself. You wanna blame someone, blame yourself! You saw all the signs and ignored them. You were so caught up in what you wanted , that you couldn't see that see what you had wasn't it. And when you did realize what you were dealing with you thought that you could change it. Well guess what, you cant change anything but yourself. It is what it is. Your vision is your vision no one else can see thru your eyes or read your thoughts, no matter how hard you try to paint the picture for another. What you need to do is learn to let go, trust me it hurts at the moment, but like anything else time will heal all it. Don't try so hard, be easy. Unless its something for yourself, than the sad reality is...you shouldn't be working so hard at something. People come in and out of ones life like the seasons, not everyone you encounter is gonna make the final cut. Be happy with yourself, and that is the only way you will find happiness in another. GOD wont give you anything you cant handle, just stay positive and BE STRONG. You will surprise yourself on occasion..."You never know how strong you truly are, till you have no other choice and have to be just that"

I dedicate this to all who feel weak, at their toughest moments...you deserve the best.

Bringing Biggie back?

Apparently one of our newer trends is the lumber jack print that some people kill and others really KILL it. Anyway, I found myself in therapy (retail) this week and came across the cutest red & black lumber jack top and then found the hat to match! Ironic? Yeah I thought so, well with all the Biggie craze since the movie came out (over 10 yrs after the fact...btw) I thought I'd rock it as a tribute to the Big Man( lucky for me and the viewing public I will be killing it as usual? I'm a fashion assassin!)...next I'll be rubbing my tits cause I love hip hop...LMAO!!!!!!

Snow Fight!!!

So on the way home yesterday I took part in a serious battle, and apparently lost! I was bombarded with snow balls and even witnessed an angel at work, it was my lil mama laying in the middle of the basketball court flapping her lil arms and long legs to create an impression of an angel ( in my opinion her trail of footsteps were enough to show that an angel had been there). It was so much fun! We chased each other home the entire way, but I gotta admit she got me good... :) It made me feel so good that she was truly happy, being that, that has been a problem for us lately...without me telling or showing her, she really knows something is not right. I'm doing my best to show her that everything will be okay, and we will have our "normal" lives back soon. With all that said, yesterday was a good day, I never knew it could feel so good to lose!...lol

Confusing weekend >>>

So this weekend was a confusing one. Friday was pretty chill, babygirl & I watched movies and stayed in. SaturDAY lil mama & I did some shopping ( retail therapy much needed) for both of us. Missed my ikea one day sale, so I was pretty upset at life, for sure...drinks were needed. But with that feeling of frustration and all the other BS going on in my life, I was only bound for trouble...so you already know(...eek). Got a lil drunk, got a lil crazy ( and we'll leave it at that). The truth is I was a lil disappointed , cause I really was hoping he'd call, but as usual he didn't (well at least when I actually want him to). This really disturbs me, cause my anger causes me to do things I normally wouldn't...and I dread the feeling of regret in the morning. Its funny how you are so aware in your mind, but your heart always seems to take over. But life goes on, Sunday was SUCKER FREE as usual, pretty laid back, no Superbowl for me ( instead I "studied" this months issue of Vogue...which is amazing btw, gossip girl looks official in this one.). Oh, I did forget to mention: I got a clip on bang this weekend and it looks absolutely fabulous ( of coarse) ;) . Anyone who want to change the look without the scissors should definitely invest in one! I loves it, it's awesome!

My first time....

Okay, so this is my first time blogging. I dont really know where to begin, but I'll try to keep it simple...(lol). I'm a young fabulous single model/corporate whatever/mom/hood personality... my name rings bells ( not a good thing all the time). Anyway, I figured I'd just blog as life goes on, nothing in specific, just the things I go thru ( which is A LOT). So I can start off by saying I love love love fashion and anything to do with it, music art...etc. Obviously thats where me modeling comes into play I've done lots of work for many designers from runway to commercial. I also work in corporate America ( ...boring) the people I work with are pretty down to earth so that makes it okay...hey whatever it takes to pay the bills (and go shopping of coarse). I'm a single mom, my beautiful daughter keeps me motivated...she is the reason why I wake up every morning...my inspiration for anything. ( If it's not for you, it's for nothing...). And finally hood celeb/personality defenitly not to be confused with hood rat or hood booger...I cant help where I'm from and honestly I dont mind at all, if it wasnt for the enviroment I was brought up in, I'd probably be some sheltered punk ass bitch, that couldn't handle the real world. Anyway, yes I can be lil ghetto ( mostly when I need to be...I know how to tame the beast...lol) I've made some poor desicions on life to get ahead quick, I' ve done some things other people wpuld brag about, but not me being a "hood legend" was never really my goal in life. So no, I dont think its cute. Like I said its a complicated life that I live, I just hope my life experiences could help others or at least keep you entertained (lol)...enjoy. :)