Sronger than I think...

Lord,
Help me to remeber that nothing is going to happen today
that you and I together cant handle!


Thank you so much, ever since a dear frind of mine put this prayer in my life it seemed to have gotten me through the toughest times...

Keeping occupied...

So, other than the obvious other things are happening as well.
I'm doing what I can to get back to being the positive and motivated pretty girl that I am. For lent I am giving up one of my favorite things ( bad habit, but hey everyones got one). I am pretty excited about this since its been so long since I've taken a break from it, so lets see how I do. I've also gone back to my old daily routines which include 1 hour of exercise and 1 hour of reading a day. Obviously those are habits that should have never been let go, but life happens! I am particularly excited about the Wii Fit that I am getting this week, I just saw the demo on line and am ecstatic ( ..I really miss yoga). I'm super happy about how sick my body will be come summer time!!! Ah yes, the old me is getting back, so watch out world! lol! Oh! btw I forgot to mention that I finally got my truck back so Yayyy!!! I'm going to pick it up on Saturday morning, so thats great. Slowly but surely everything is falling back into place. So as for all that other stuff...eff it!

Leo.... could this be more on point???...smh

Tuesday, Feb 24th, 2009 -- Today's New Moon is in your 8th House of Intimacy and you are no longer satisfied in a partnership if the other person cannot match your level of intensity. You don't have a wide spectrum of responses now when it comes to expressing your intentions. For you, it's either all or nothing with very little in between. You can avoid disappointment by realizing that the fulfillment of a promise may not mean as much to someone else as it does to you.

Weekend Wrap Up!

It's been a few days, but I'm back...where to begin? Well I had a nice V-day with my lil mama, we went ice skating for the first time and had a good time. She fell a few times which explains why we were only there for about an 1 1/2 hrs. But we had fun, and thats all that matters. Later on I had dinner with one of my girlies and after we went out for drinks...( anything to keep our lonely asses from staying home alone...lol!) The night went well, even though the end sucked pretty bad, we both went home anticipating something that just wasn't going to be...how foolish one can be when it comes to matters of the heart, smh...
Anyway, Sunday was "sucker-free" (just the way I like it) and the fact that I changed all my numbers early that morning definitely helped, lol! I have decided it's time to make some changes, so I did something I didn't think I'd ever do. I feel like I had to, just cut out all the bullshit constantly getting in my way.
Monday was a better day, no work or school. So I slept till like 1 o'clock ( cant remember when was the last time I did that!) Me and lil mama just bummed it out and watched movies all day (my favorite!)

Stop Hitting Yourself !!!

A person will only treat you the way you allow them to. Anyone feeling down and out and not understanding why their situations with others are so...well, its because you let it be. If you're gonna be angry, be angry with yourself. You wanna blame someone, blame yourself! You saw all the signs and ignored them. You were so caught up in what you wanted , that you couldn't see that see what you had wasn't it. And when you did realize what you were dealing with you thought that you could change it. Well guess what, you cant change anything but yourself. It is what it is. Your vision is your vision no one else can see thru your eyes or read your thoughts, no matter how hard you try to paint the picture for another. What you need to do is learn to let go, trust me it hurts at the moment, but like anything else time will heal all it. Don't try so hard, be easy. Unless its something for yourself, than the sad reality is...you shouldn't be working so hard at something. People come in and out of ones life like the seasons, not everyone you encounter is gonna make the final cut. Be happy with yourself, and that is the only way you will find happiness in another. GOD wont give you anything you cant handle, just stay positive and BE STRONG. You will surprise yourself on occasion..."You never know how strong you truly are, till you have no other choice and have to be just that"

I dedicate this to all who feel weak, at their toughest moments...you deserve the best.

Bringing Biggie back?

Apparently one of our newer trends is the lumber jack print that some people kill and others really KILL it. Anyway, I found myself in therapy (retail) this week and came across the cutest red & black lumber jack top and then found the hat to match! Ironic? Yeah I thought so, well with all the Biggie craze since the movie came out (over 10 yrs after the fact...btw) I thought I'd rock it as a tribute to the Big Man( lucky for me and the viewing public I will be killing it as usual? I'm a fashion assassin!)...next I'll be rubbing my tits cause I love hip hop...LMAO!!!!!!

Snow Fight!!!

So on the way home yesterday I took part in a serious battle, and apparently lost! I was bombarded with snow balls and even witnessed an angel at work, it was my lil mama laying in the middle of the basketball court flapping her lil arms and long legs to create an impression of an angel ( in my opinion her trail of footsteps were enough to show that an angel had been there). It was so much fun! We chased each other home the entire way, but I gotta admit she got me good... :) It made me feel so good that she was truly happy, being that, that has been a problem for us lately...without me telling or showing her, she really knows something is not right. I'm doing my best to show her that everything will be okay, and we will have our "normal" lives back soon. With all that said, yesterday was a good day, I never knew it could feel so good to lose!...lol

Confusing weekend >>>

So this weekend was a confusing one. Friday was pretty chill, babygirl & I watched movies and stayed in. SaturDAY lil mama & I did some shopping ( retail therapy much needed) for both of us. Missed my ikea one day sale, so I was pretty upset at life, for sure...drinks were needed. But with that feeling of frustration and all the other BS going on in my life, I was only bound for trouble...so you already know(...eek). Got a lil drunk, got a lil crazy ( and we'll leave it at that). The truth is I was a lil disappointed , cause I really was hoping he'd call, but as usual he didn't (well at least when I actually want him to). This really disturbs me, cause my anger causes me to do things I normally wouldn't...and I dread the feeling of regret in the morning. Its funny how you are so aware in your mind, but your heart always seems to take over. But life goes on, Sunday was SUCKER FREE as usual, pretty laid back, no Superbowl for me ( instead I "studied" this months issue of Vogue...which is amazing btw, gossip girl looks official in this one.). Oh, I did forget to mention: I got a clip on bang this weekend and it looks absolutely fabulous ( of coarse) ;) . Anyone who want to change the look without the scissors should definitely invest in one! I loves it, it's awesome!